Summertime Rules

"Do you wanna go in the water?" To which he replied "beat'cha there". They ran toward the lake. When they got in they slowed down because of the rocks under their feet. They both thought it was weird how some patches of the water were really cold. Almost like winter didn't want to leave those places.

"Stay right there" called their father "don't go out too far". They took turns swimming through each other's legs and clicking rocks under the water in some new form of Morse code.

When the ice cream truck came everyone ran to get a treat. One kid in front of me actually tried to pay with a wooden nickel, how cliche. "I'll pay for his too" I said. It was just one day in the best summer ever.

My Life in Movie Format chapter 5

I hit the (40) bottle hard when I got home. My drinking buddy was Justin. The man I eventually had a daughter with. But at the time the sexual part of the relationship wasn't there. A fact that drove Justin crazy. He spent a while in the "looney bin" (as he calls it). When he got out he drove to Florida to stay with family.

I continued to drink but because of the OCD I was also washing my hands for what seemed like 90 % of the time. My first therapist, Dr. Haddad told me (along with everyone else) that I should just go ahead and tough the door handle, it will be fine. I didn't think so. So I dropped him and found some more experienced people who took my fears seriously. By seriously I mean they drugged me up. I've been on everything from Abilify and Klonopin to Zoloft and Seraquil. I just seemed to get worse. Of course, you're not supposed to drink on the meds but I did anyway...heavily. One night I got so drunk and stressed that I started banging my head against the wall. There's also been cutting and other self destructive behavior.

It wasn't until I was put on a combination of Abilify, Prozac and Klonopin and stopped drinking that I started to feel better. I gained more confidence and the first thing I did was get back in touch with Justin.